1. funshion to stream my weekly US dramas like gossip girl, glee, fringe and friends
2. ...
and that's all.
hail funshion - u saved my weekends alone:)
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
32
32. strange age to actually wanna do anything crazy or wild. i think after all these years, i am pretty sure i prefer a more subdued celebration style.
this trip has been good for the soul - to finally face up to reality and come to terms with what ought to be done (the trip to some random tarot card reader helped).
and to my JBB, thanks for all the advice - i finally see it now. only a true friend will put your interest first when advicing on an issue. i will remember it well.
32 - it shall be all about ME from now on.
this trip has been good for the soul - to finally face up to reality and come to terms with what ought to be done (the trip to some random tarot card reader helped).
and to my JBB, thanks for all the advice - i finally see it now. only a true friend will put your interest first when advicing on an issue. i will remember it well.
32 - it shall be all about ME from now on.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
feelings of irrational disappointment
i have been hit by an irrational feelings of disappointment - it's crazy - knowing full well the impossibility of it all, i still cant help feeling the disappointment and grief when the reality of it hit me squarely in the face. goes to show 1 point - u can never be ready no matter how much prep talk or pysching yourself up u have been doing prior to this point. i guess i can only wait for this feeling of hurt and disappointment to sink into numbness and oblivion before i can regain a clear head to decide the next course of action. i can only pray that the day will come really soon.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
hello 25 goodbye 41
we have moved office. yes, 3 months on and we have said our farewell to the dingy albeit cosy abode @ 41a neil to a much bigger and more nicely refurbished reside @ 25 a neil.
but i m so gg to miss the old place - so many memories and more significantly, that was where our hopes and dreams first took flight. my list of top 5 most unforgettable moments @ 41a:
1. the days before the opening - numerous trips to ikea to shore up the necessaries - including that day we bought the company's flower (daisy) and the night market cny shopping @ chinatown where we bought the plant and many versions of the cny delights.
2. opening day itself (17 feb): a day that started totally tensed (what with the fiasco the night before with d.) but was filled with a lot of buzz and a lao yu sheng session (with said yu sheng kindly sponsored by lifen).
3. the many nites of playing 'in-between' with various frds
4. the long nite just after our first month of ops when we were struggling with the old ops system (g calender) and trying to come up with a brand new approach - that nite proved to be our most productive nite ever as we settled so many outstanding issues and exhibited much fire fighting skills to smoothen our ops running.
5. the day that we had our first company lunch (to commenerate our 1 month in op) @ yan palacce
actually, what must be remembered most about 41a is really that it was the birth place of our aspiration - the many falls we took along the way to make it happen and the many ppl who helped us and encouraged us to make sure we perserve on. there were of cos the ones who snubbed us for our humble beginnings (they chose to overlook our wealth in vision and focused instead on the seeming poverty of our locale) - that made us much stronger and more steely in our resolve to prove them otherwise.
more imptly, 41a must be remembered for the collective efforts of our 3 dear staff - their steadfast belief in us and constant encouragement to us made this not just another office where we go abt our daily grind but more like a family where we support one another and bought into a common goal.
and so it is - hello 25a, goodbye 41a - u will always be remembered.
but i m so gg to miss the old place - so many memories and more significantly, that was where our hopes and dreams first took flight. my list of top 5 most unforgettable moments @ 41a:
1. the days before the opening - numerous trips to ikea to shore up the necessaries - including that day we bought the company's flower (daisy) and the night market cny shopping @ chinatown where we bought the plant and many versions of the cny delights.
2. opening day itself (17 feb): a day that started totally tensed (what with the fiasco the night before with d.) but was filled with a lot of buzz and a lao yu sheng session (with said yu sheng kindly sponsored by lifen).
3. the many nites of playing 'in-between' with various frds
4. the long nite just after our first month of ops when we were struggling with the old ops system (g calender) and trying to come up with a brand new approach - that nite proved to be our most productive nite ever as we settled so many outstanding issues and exhibited much fire fighting skills to smoothen our ops running.
5. the day that we had our first company lunch (to commenerate our 1 month in op) @ yan palacce
actually, what must be remembered most about 41a is really that it was the birth place of our aspiration - the many falls we took along the way to make it happen and the many ppl who helped us and encouraged us to make sure we perserve on. there were of cos the ones who snubbed us for our humble beginnings (they chose to overlook our wealth in vision and focused instead on the seeming poverty of our locale) - that made us much stronger and more steely in our resolve to prove them otherwise.
more imptly, 41a must be remembered for the collective efforts of our 3 dear staff - their steadfast belief in us and constant encouragement to us made this not just another office where we go abt our daily grind but more like a family where we support one another and bought into a common goal.
and so it is - hello 25a, goodbye 41a - u will always be remembered.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
dear journal
finally ... the bad seed in my company has been removed - time to pull out the confetti and start the music (kelly clarkson's 'already gone' is prime choice for spin simply due to the title alone). it's bye bye n. and no thanks for the constant 'dejected demeanor which fringes on self pity that is seriously unattractive' (quote from antm cycle 14 - tyra still has it in her to dish out the meanest shit!) and for the smart alec-ky attitude that begged to be adored and for the 'i-m-doing-a-good-job-pls-look-at-me-and-give-me-a-pat-on-the-shoulder' look everytime something as mundane (and inane!) as getting in on time is achieved.
good riddance!
dear journal, why is it increasingly difficult to get someone who is reliable these days? is it that difficult to get someone who actually takes being on time for work and putting in a solid 6 hours work as part of their job scope instead of having to fall back on motivation and showering praises whenever these happen? simply put, since when is it the boss's job to cajole u to stick to punctuality and hard work? i paid for yr existence in the company for crying out loud!
moving on, the past week was a pretty emotional rollercoaster ride for me. confrontations, arguments, patch-ups, tempers flew and admist all these, a birthday dinner for d. honestly, at this rate i might as well be diabolic - what with the many facets i have to put on, sometimes within the same hour - i fear i might be losing myself. i can almost feel like my feelings numbed up at a certain instance when the usual argument took place and the usual culprit flew into a "face-tearing" confrontation - i dont even feel shocked or maligned or upset anymore - ke$ha might as well be singing blah blah blah in my head when the episode happened. it is not good.
olc is moving to a new venue - fyi. and after MONTHS of being put on hold and being part of someone else's big fat plan, the dust has finally settled as to where i wd be setting up my new insurance agency branch. i m thrilled and excited by the new prospects. familiar grounds again after all these time, what goes around indeed comes around! wish me luck!
good riddance!
dear journal, why is it increasingly difficult to get someone who is reliable these days? is it that difficult to get someone who actually takes being on time for work and putting in a solid 6 hours work as part of their job scope instead of having to fall back on motivation and showering praises whenever these happen? simply put, since when is it the boss's job to cajole u to stick to punctuality and hard work? i paid for yr existence in the company for crying out loud!
moving on, the past week was a pretty emotional rollercoaster ride for me. confrontations, arguments, patch-ups, tempers flew and admist all these, a birthday dinner for d. honestly, at this rate i might as well be diabolic - what with the many facets i have to put on, sometimes within the same hour - i fear i might be losing myself. i can almost feel like my feelings numbed up at a certain instance when the usual argument took place and the usual culprit flew into a "face-tearing" confrontation - i dont even feel shocked or maligned or upset anymore - ke$ha might as well be singing blah blah blah in my head when the episode happened. it is not good.
olc is moving to a new venue - fyi. and after MONTHS of being put on hold and being part of someone else's big fat plan, the dust has finally settled as to where i wd be setting up my new insurance agency branch. i m thrilled and excited by the new prospects. familiar grounds again after all these time, what goes around indeed comes around! wish me luck!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
to the faithful departed
don't mean to be overtly melodramatic here but these days, i can't help feeling a tad lonely when i think about the frds who are leaving the country for years (!) in the coming months. it's particularly hard to deal with (for me) when these folks have been so crucial in my near non-existent social circle - now i know what it feels for the old lady in the chinese tabloids who lost her life savings of $10,000 to a swindler. drawing that parallel, the loss will be felt immensely and the heart is left with a gaping hole. Hell! these folks' numbers are on my speed dial!
to my dearest felynn (JBB) who was such an important frd in the last 2 yrs - i can't believe you are leaving so soon - there's so much things we said we will be doing but haven't got round to doing it yet! what abt our travel to bkk that we were talking abt since our income days? what's gg to happen to the raffles hospital facial thingy u promised to go with me for? and the ktvs? shopping sessions? food hunt?
to my best frd matthew who for the last 7 years been my pillar of support in whatever i do - smeaks, how cd u have made that decision to MIGRATE to aus and leave me here? wat am i supposed to do when i feel lost again? who can i relate my most honest fears to now that u are gone? what about our weekly lunches and get togethers with bo and ray? what's gg to happen to our 7 yrs tradition of celebrating each other's bday together?
i hate farewells.
to my dearest felynn (JBB) who was such an important frd in the last 2 yrs - i can't believe you are leaving so soon - there's so much things we said we will be doing but haven't got round to doing it yet! what abt our travel to bkk that we were talking abt since our income days? what's gg to happen to the raffles hospital facial thingy u promised to go with me for? and the ktvs? shopping sessions? food hunt?
to my best frd matthew who for the last 7 years been my pillar of support in whatever i do - smeaks, how cd u have made that decision to MIGRATE to aus and leave me here? wat am i supposed to do when i feel lost again? who can i relate my most honest fears to now that u are gone? what about our weekly lunches and get togethers with bo and ray? what's gg to happen to our 7 yrs tradition of celebrating each other's bday together?
i hate farewells.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
crisis
we might have expanded a little too fast and paying the price for it... super stressed now as we see clients dropping like flies...this is not good. not good at all.
but we will persevere and pull thru. this is just a hurdle. breathe kevin breathe!
but we will persevere and pull thru. this is just a hurdle. breathe kevin breathe!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
top 5 songs of my life rite now
1. ke$ha - your love is my drug
2. allison iraheta - scars
3. orianthi - according to you
4. taylor swift - you belong with me
5. paramore - the only exception
what's yours?
2. allison iraheta - scars
3. orianthi - according to you
4. taylor swift - you belong with me
5. paramore - the only exception
what's yours?
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
when the going gets tough...
the tough gets going.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
otherwise, it's really just success coming late.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
failure will only come when we give up.
otherwise, it's really just success coming late.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
koc - revisited
after 4 yrs, one of my fave bands of all times - kings of convenience - is back to perform for the mosaic festival @ the esplanade!
performing in front of a sell out crowd, i was once again enraptured in their mellow vocals and simple stage set up. their songs never fail to comfort me in a way that otherwise only very old frds can. as they belted out their old hits, it was as if i was walking down memory lanes - reminiscing the times when i was first touched by their vocals and remembering the faces of the people who were once so dear in my life - lovers and friends alike.
on a side note, our little company (olc henceforth) has celebrated its first month of operations 2 days ago - ups and downs, joyous times and times when u questioned why u decided to drop everything for this, the many sacrifices made and the times when u cd pull ya hair out trying to get things rite. yes all these in a month! without sounding excessive melodramatic, it's been quite a rollercoaster ride.
performing in front of a sell out crowd, i was once again enraptured in their mellow vocals and simple stage set up. their songs never fail to comfort me in a way that otherwise only very old frds can. as they belted out their old hits, it was as if i was walking down memory lanes - reminiscing the times when i was first touched by their vocals and remembering the faces of the people who were once so dear in my life - lovers and friends alike.
on a side note, our little company (olc henceforth) has celebrated its first month of operations 2 days ago - ups and downs, joyous times and times when u questioned why u decided to drop everything for this, the many sacrifices made and the times when u cd pull ya hair out trying to get things rite. yes all these in a month! without sounding excessive melodramatic, it's been quite a rollercoaster ride.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
my tunes
i shall take a break from blogging about work , no matter how tempting it is to keep blabbering about the current challenges etc...
instead, i wanna list the songs tt sets me in a good mood these days when i catch a listen on the radio while driving, strangely songs tend to sound that much nicer when heard over the car stereo. oh well, here goes (in no particular order):
1. ke$ha's blah blah blah (i know, it's kind of nonsensical but i likey)
2. avril lavigne's alice (underground) ( i havent watched the movie yet. damn:( )
3. ke$ha's tick tock ( yea, i m so digging her and her sob sob start up story hehe)
4. taylor swift's fearless (didnt like her music style initially but guess, she's the kind that grows on ya)
5. lady gaga's telephone (yea, the video's the blast!)
on a side note, i LOST my tiffany ring in the novena gym showers today! extremely distraught by the incident :( - this ring's been with me for the last 6 years, everyday, on my finger! and now, as i run my thumb over my middle finger, i feel the loss immediately.
my heart bleeds.
instead, i wanna list the songs tt sets me in a good mood these days when i catch a listen on the radio while driving, strangely songs tend to sound that much nicer when heard over the car stereo. oh well, here goes (in no particular order):
1. ke$ha's blah blah blah (i know, it's kind of nonsensical but i likey)
2. avril lavigne's alice (underground) ( i havent watched the movie yet. damn:( )
3. ke$ha's tick tock ( yea, i m so digging her and her sob sob start up story hehe)
4. taylor swift's fearless (didnt like her music style initially but guess, she's the kind that grows on ya)
5. lady gaga's telephone (yea, the video's the blast!)
on a side note, i LOST my tiffany ring in the novena gym showers today! extremely distraught by the incident :( - this ring's been with me for the last 6 years, everyday, on my finger! and now, as i run my thumb over my middle finger, i feel the loss immediately.
my heart bleeds.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
that's the way love goes...
someone mentioned today that i am a loser in love...and i actually was short of a quick rebuttal to tt. i pondered a little over the remark and yea, i cant find evidence of any sorts in the last couple of yrs that actually could stand as evidence to the contrary.
so yea, coming to the age of 32 and still painfully single, with the longest rs the one i had back when i was in my early 20s, i guess i have to concede that in the l. department, i might really just be a big loser after all.
i was never lucky in love. the several episodes i have in my life thus far were all fleeting and usually end with me and the other party not even bothering to keep in touch. don't know why but i never am good with maintaining a rs cordially - the ups were crazy highs, the downs were the ones that no sane person can recover from. the in-betweens doesnt exist for me, it was always intense and speedy - pretty much like a car gg at 140km/hr without a working brake pad, the crash was really imminent.
i dont know where i m actually going with this entry really. i guess its just ramblings triggered by a very real possibility that actually got verbalised by a third party that i was hoping i wont hear it actualised out in words. the l. word. how elusive.
so yea, coming to the age of 32 and still painfully single, with the longest rs the one i had back when i was in my early 20s, i guess i have to concede that in the l. department, i might really just be a big loser after all.
i was never lucky in love. the several episodes i have in my life thus far were all fleeting and usually end with me and the other party not even bothering to keep in touch. don't know why but i never am good with maintaining a rs cordially - the ups were crazy highs, the downs were the ones that no sane person can recover from. the in-betweens doesnt exist for me, it was always intense and speedy - pretty much like a car gg at 140km/hr without a working brake pad, the crash was really imminent.
i dont know where i m actually going with this entry really. i guess its just ramblings triggered by a very real possibility that actually got verbalised by a third party that i was hoping i wont hear it actualised out in words. the l. word. how elusive.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
the daily grind
these days, work starts @ 11 am for me, the daily grind involves the following:
1. rushing down to office to open the door for our aunty staff (whom we fondly refer to, internally of cos, as our "old fogies")
2. ra-ra-ing and settling them before the official work starts
3. updating the previous days appts status
4. clapping and cheering whenever the bell gets ring
5. updating results on the board
6. solving questions that come suddenly about product and stuff, sending emails, follow ups etc etc
7. ra-ra-ing again when the results are below expectations or nearing expectations
8. discussing about training, HR matters, sales etc etc
9. wrapping things up and tabulating the system
10. putting on the board what to discuss for tmr plus some monkeying ard with D. or having his frds come over
everyday ends with me feeling pretty drained from the day's activities. i guess thats entreprenuership for ya - when the onus of survival falls entirely unto our own laps, instead of having the "company" to rely on for operations or fall backs, every minute detail becomes crucial and a point to be wary of. it's tiring but at the same time, when things go our way, the pride and joy from knowing that all that planning and risk taking have paid off are just enormous. let's hope the day comes when we look back at our beginning and beam with so much pride as to how much we have achieved - that, i m sure, will be sweet.
p.s. i am so into ke$ha - tick tock is infectious!
1. rushing down to office to open the door for our aunty staff (whom we fondly refer to, internally of cos, as our "old fogies")
2. ra-ra-ing and settling them before the official work starts
3. updating the previous days appts status
4. clapping and cheering whenever the bell gets ring
5. updating results on the board
6. solving questions that come suddenly about product and stuff, sending emails, follow ups etc etc
7. ra-ra-ing again when the results are below expectations or nearing expectations
8. discussing about training, HR matters, sales etc etc
9. wrapping things up and tabulating the system
10. putting on the board what to discuss for tmr plus some monkeying ard with D. or having his frds come over
everyday ends with me feeling pretty drained from the day's activities. i guess thats entreprenuership for ya - when the onus of survival falls entirely unto our own laps, instead of having the "company" to rely on for operations or fall backs, every minute detail becomes crucial and a point to be wary of. it's tiring but at the same time, when things go our way, the pride and joy from knowing that all that planning and risk taking have paid off are just enormous. let's hope the day comes when we look back at our beginning and beam with so much pride as to how much we have achieved - that, i m sure, will be sweet.
p.s. i am so into ke$ha - tick tock is infectious!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
the one about many thanks
this week can easily count as the most important week of my career thus far. plunging into self employment (although, technically years ago i already did that with insurance) complete with my very own office and staff on payroll - i guess i can truly say that i have finally realised my ambition as an entrepreneur.
before this becomes an oscar acceptance speech (which would really be too cring worthy), i really wanna express my heartfelt gratitude to my frds who sent lovely flowers bearing well wishes (ray, matt, xueling, bo, esther, hui, liliane, norman) and the gems who actually came down on the opening day on wed to help out physically and gave constructive advices (lifen, felynn, hui, liliane, annie). really, at this point, it means a great deal to me - all that support i got from my frds.
but more importantly, i think i owe my partner in crime D. a big thank you as well. and u know i dont do this often so it's prob gonna be the ONLY time i say this (being the atypical asian man and all, i really am not big on expressing publicly my gratitude), but seriously D. yea, thanks for giving me the courage and confidence to do this, and for being patient when i get all flustered from all the pressure at crunch times. this would have been much less fun and a lot more stressful (and i prob wdnt have followed thru to make it a reality) if you hadnt been there. so yea - thanks. let's rock this!
before this becomes an oscar acceptance speech (which would really be too cring worthy), i really wanna express my heartfelt gratitude to my frds who sent lovely flowers bearing well wishes (ray, matt, xueling, bo, esther, hui, liliane, norman) and the gems who actually came down on the opening day on wed to help out physically and gave constructive advices (lifen, felynn, hui, liliane, annie). really, at this point, it means a great deal to me - all that support i got from my frds.
but more importantly, i think i owe my partner in crime D. a big thank you as well. and u know i dont do this often so it's prob gonna be the ONLY time i say this (being the atypical asian man and all, i really am not big on expressing publicly my gratitude), but seriously D. yea, thanks for giving me the courage and confidence to do this, and for being patient when i get all flustered from all the pressure at crunch times. this would have been much less fun and a lot more stressful (and i prob wdnt have followed thru to make it a reality) if you hadnt been there. so yea - thanks. let's rock this!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
1 2 3
britney had 3 - we had 19!
appts that's :) so this is how it feels like to be winning hehe...
on a seperate note, an after work "in between" session with D. and frd have me losing my biggest ever in a gambling game - two bloody hundred!!! mother - f*&^*^%!
appts that's :) so this is how it feels like to be winning hehe...
on a seperate note, an after work "in between" session with D. and frd have me losing my biggest ever in a gambling game - two bloody hundred!!! mother - f*&^*^%!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
the one about a brand new start
it's with a mixed bag of feelings that i woke up with this morning... a new chapter of my life has begun - after a hiatus of approximately 2 months, i am back with the work force - this time, starting my own little company with D.
half of my heart was palpitating with anticipation as the last few months saw my thoughts materialised into reality, half of it was filled with self doubt - like how did i think i cd actually pull this off? like seriously!
but these few months of preparation has taught me so much - setting up a company isnt easy at all! what with the whole barrage of adminstration to see to - roc registration, bank account opening, sourcing a decent office space, rental contract, interviewing prospective employees, hiring, drafting of agreements, looking for clients, setting up land lines - we must have flipped through the entire operation process over in our head at least a thousand times before everything materialise in front of us today! the process itself seemed daunting already - add to that, the emotional rollercoaster that has to be ridden out between 2 working partners, by 2 working partners.
i guess what i took away most from the entire experience has to be that nothing is insurmountable as long as the heart has the desire to accomplish! the power of 2 minds sharing the same vision is a formidable force that cannot be underestimated. there is only 1 way to fail actually - and that is when either 1 of us gives up, otherwise it's just setbacks that we will eventually recover from - i must remind myself of that more often when the spirit is weak and the heart is contaminated by fear. this is the first day of many more days to come - i cant believe i m saying this - but for the first time in a very long time, i actually look forward to the next day @ work. i actually feel alive again!:)
half of my heart was palpitating with anticipation as the last few months saw my thoughts materialised into reality, half of it was filled with self doubt - like how did i think i cd actually pull this off? like seriously!
but these few months of preparation has taught me so much - setting up a company isnt easy at all! what with the whole barrage of adminstration to see to - roc registration, bank account opening, sourcing a decent office space, rental contract, interviewing prospective employees, hiring, drafting of agreements, looking for clients, setting up land lines - we must have flipped through the entire operation process over in our head at least a thousand times before everything materialise in front of us today! the process itself seemed daunting already - add to that, the emotional rollercoaster that has to be ridden out between 2 working partners, by 2 working partners.
i guess what i took away most from the entire experience has to be that nothing is insurmountable as long as the heart has the desire to accomplish! the power of 2 minds sharing the same vision is a formidable force that cannot be underestimated. there is only 1 way to fail actually - and that is when either 1 of us gives up, otherwise it's just setbacks that we will eventually recover from - i must remind myself of that more often when the spirit is weak and the heart is contaminated by fear. this is the first day of many more days to come - i cant believe i m saying this - but for the first time in a very long time, i actually look forward to the next day @ work. i actually feel alive again!:)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
short entry and short changed
i hate being taken for granted :(
the feeling has transcended from rage to disappointment - and i think it's a feeling that is harder to let go.
the feeling has transcended from rage to disappointment - and i think it's a feeling that is harder to let go.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Ok Here goes...
ok. i have decided to start blogging again - a habit that i hv stopped since at least 3 yrs back. why bother flogging a dead horse u might ask.
well, it's definitely not 'cos i have a sudden surge of brillant perspectives about everything that i m dying to share or that i needed some attention in my so-called life, rather i suddenly rem how much i missed writing my thoughts out - the literal getting matters off my chest and the pure and simple liberty i felt when i cd pour my honest feelings out in the open like this. or this cd be one of my many whims, spur of the moment kind of thing (i m hoping not).
whatever. here i am. 14th day of feb - first day of the tiger year and v day (wat are the odds?), 31 yr old me back to doing what i did when i was a mere mid 20 - talk about a revival of sorts! clap ya hands if u r happy and reading this!:) the bitch's back hehe:)
well, it's definitely not 'cos i have a sudden surge of brillant perspectives about everything that i m dying to share or that i needed some attention in my so-called life, rather i suddenly rem how much i missed writing my thoughts out - the literal getting matters off my chest and the pure and simple liberty i felt when i cd pour my honest feelings out in the open like this. or this cd be one of my many whims, spur of the moment kind of thing (i m hoping not).
whatever. here i am. 14th day of feb - first day of the tiger year and v day (wat are the odds?), 31 yr old me back to doing what i did when i was a mere mid 20 - talk about a revival of sorts! clap ya hands if u r happy and reading this!:) the bitch's back hehe:)
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