dear journal

finally ... the bad seed in my company has been removed - time to pull out the confetti and start the music (kelly clarkson's 'already gone' is prime choice for spin simply due to the title alone). it's bye bye n. and no thanks for the constant 'dejected demeanor which fringes on self pity that is seriously unattractive' (quote from antm cycle 14 - tyra still has it in her to dish out the meanest shit!) and for the smart alec-ky attitude that begged to be adored and for the 'i-m-doing-a-good-job-pls-look-at-me-and-give-me-a-pat-on-the-shoulder' look everytime something as mundane (and inane!) as getting in on time is achieved.

good riddance!

dear journal, why is it increasingly difficult to get someone who is reliable these days? is it that difficult to get someone who actually takes being on time for work and putting in a solid 6 hours work as part of their job scope instead of having to fall back on motivation and showering praises whenever these happen? simply put, since when is it the boss's job to cajole u to stick to punctuality and hard work? i paid for yr existence in the company for crying out loud!

moving on, the past week was a pretty emotional rollercoaster ride for me. confrontations, arguments, patch-ups, tempers flew and admist all these, a birthday dinner for d. honestly, at this rate i might as well be diabolic - what with the many facets i have to put on, sometimes within the same hour - i fear i might be losing myself. i can almost feel like my feelings numbed up at a certain instance when the usual argument took place and the usual culprit flew into a "face-tearing" confrontation - i dont even feel shocked or maligned or upset anymore - ke$ha might as well be singing blah blah blah in my head when the episode happened. it is not good.

olc is moving to a new venue - fyi. and after MONTHS of being put on hold and being part of someone else's big fat plan, the dust has finally settled as to where i wd be setting up my new insurance agency branch. i m thrilled and excited by the new prospects. familiar grounds again after all these time, what goes around indeed comes around! wish me luck!