feelings of irrational disappointment

i have been hit by an irrational feelings of disappointment - it's crazy - knowing full well the impossibility of it all, i still cant help feeling the disappointment and grief when the reality of it hit me squarely in the face. goes to show 1 point - u can never be ready no matter how much prep talk or pysching yourself up u have been doing prior to this point. i guess i can only wait for this feeling of hurt and disappointment to sink into numbness and oblivion before i can regain a clear head to decide the next course of action. i can only pray that the day will come really soon.